the new me?

It's been 2,3 weeks now I'm not in a good mood. Even my friends said I've changed. I know I have. But what worries me is that, I don't give a damn...
Tension with everything that's happening with my life right now. I feel lost. I feel angry. I feel alone... Tadi g tgk cter Megamind 3D. Enjoyed the movie, lupe kejap masalah. Tapi abis je movie, trus ingat blk all the craps I'm dealing with. Adeh... God help me, don't let me do anything that I might regret.
Tomorrow I'm going to see mama. You see, she's coming to KL with my sis' family. At least I can play with my niece and nephew, and can spend time with mama. Harap2 boleh lupekan masalah kejap. However I know bile blk Cheras the problem will be waiting for me. Hopefully I can talk it out this coming Monday or the following days. Nak settle secpt yg mungkin. Dh x blh tahan. Lagi tunggu, lagi tension. Byk lg hal ln nak uruskan, so I'm settling it one by one. I don't want to be a typical Malay. Sume nak hold, sume nak tggu later. Mls nak pikir la konon2, walhal, lg lame lg parah. Sbb lg tggu, makin teruk, mcm virus. Ntahla.
Fuck...feel like want to punch someone...