Don't want to be alone...

Sejak dah bebrape tahun, aku bukak pose n bersahur mostly by myself. Terase lonely sangat2. I miss my mom, and I really miss breaking fast n sahur wif someone...Sejak aku jumpe this 1 person, I've fallen for her head over heels. Sekarang aku rase aku dah ready to go on the next stage in my life. My girl, Paan tau you will read this, so this is for you.
I love you now more than ever. You know that I'd do anything for you. I hope next Ramadhan will be at most the last time I will be breaking fast n bersahur by myself. After that, hopefully you will be waking me up around 4.45am untuk sahur same2, n then around 7.30pm kite berbuke puase same2. Kalau by next Ramadhan pun dah boleh macam tu, the better. You understand what I'm trying to say, right?
You know I'm damn serious in making you mine. Paan harap Paan tak perasan sorang2. Paan harap you are not playing with me. Paan tau you need time to heal and everything, but at the same time, while you're healing, Paan harap you have chosen me to be your life partner. Tell me that you can see that we can have a life together. Jadi atau tak, itu terletak di tangan tuhan, but at least I need to know if we are on the same page. Kalau you tak rase begitu, let me know... I hope it's me you choose, as I can't go down that horrible road again, where the thought of living without you will hurt me deeper than any wound will be able to. Walaupun sekarang kite not officially a couple because you say that you can't fulfill your duty as a girlfriend at the moment, but we still utter the L word to each other, and you still let me hold you. And I can see your love for me in your eyes. Please tell me they are real.
Dah, tu je yang terlintas dalam kepale Paan buat mase ni. Anything else, I'll say it to you. Right now I'm enjoying our time together, but you know I want more. I'm willing to wait, but I hope it's worth it. I said I want to make you my wife, and the thought haven't change. Just for fun, kalau you rase you want to be my life partner, buat lagi sekali macam last time yang you buat tu, tapi kalau xnak buat pun xpe... You know, while walking away, you say the title of the blog "A Simple Poem", only this time you say this title :) Konon2 belum bace, ceh! Kiut, tapi nakal =p
Oh, by the way, Paan tau you tak suke dipanggil "YOU", tapi Paan pun tau you don't want your name to be mentioned here, so that's why. I miss you, and I love you with all my heart. I'll see you this Monday, sayang :)