Don't want to be scared anymore...

Hm...i'm going through this again... will i get burnt? Will i get crushed? Or will i be going to sleep with tears in my eyes again... These are just some of the thoughts that's been playing in my mind. I'm feeling very comfortable with her, but still at the corner of my heart, fear is still lurking inside of me. Past experiences have left me with scars. Scars that will always be there and never go away. Damn skippy i'm afraid. Hell, i'm scared i could piss any moment. But does that mean i should stop trying?
The more i love her, the more i will be hurt if things go south. But why should i think like that? Maybe this time it will work out. Maybe this time, i finally end up with the happiness i've been craving for. Maybe, just maybe, this time her feelings for me is real as well. She sure looks that way. Am i predicting too soon? Maybe, but again, the heart tells you what you want, and right now it tells me that i should not be afraid any more.
Sure, shit happens to me many times before. But there's a saying, "Rain before the rainbow". Maybe my rainbow has finally arrive. I should take this moment and cherish everything that's been said and done between us. Yes, i do love her. And though i'm scared, i do trust her. If it's not meant to be, then i'll be in misery AGAIN but i'll move on. But whatever the outcome, i must and will give my all and try until the end. I don't want to look back someday, and ask myself,"What might have happen if i give my all..."
Ya Allah, help me, give me strength and give me happiness as You see fit. And let me continue this journey of life with her by my side, let us be together and follow the path that You lay in front of us. Amin...